I feel like a hamster on a wheel. Spinning and spinning, yet going nowhere. I’m constantly busy, as busy as I can be while feeling so sick, yet my to-do lists never seem to get shorter. I get to the end of the day and wonder what I’ve been working on all day and why I am so tired.
I’m weary. Bonetired, soul-drained, brain-fatigued, weary.
You know where I am, right? You’ve been there too, I know. This place of weary frustration where you want to throw the towel in. Quit. Yell, “That’s it. I’ve had enough!” Stomp your feet, beat your pillow, curl up into a little ball, and cry.
This place isn’t a destination for cowards.
But you’re no coward and neither am I. We’ve been here before. We know that our journey may stall out here for a time, but it’s not our final destination. There are better days ahead.
So we hold on. We wait, we pray, we sleep when we can, we listen to music, and we hold off making any major life decisions.
We know that things will soon look different. Maybe even tomorrow morning we’ll open our eyes and the light will have found its way to us. It will start to warm our dry bones and fill our broken hearts.
While we wait for that day to come, we cling to the truths we learned during brighter days. We remember that God is good. We remember that He knows what deep suffering feels like. We remember that He cares about us intimately. We trust that He will bring beauty to us even in the darkness.
God’s Word is truth, and it is there where we find comfort for our souls and the precious gift of hope. May these verses encourage you and bless you, my friend. God is with you!
“Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to Him who has no might He increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” -Isaiah 40:28-31
“For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish.” -Jeremiah 31:24
“The Lord upholds all who are falling and raises up all who are bowed down. The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food in due season. You open your hand; you satisfy the desire of every living thing. The Lord is righteous in all His ways and kind in all His works. The Lord is near to all who call on Him, to all who call on Him in truth. He fulfills the desire of those who fear Him; He also hears their cry and saves them.” -Psalm 145:14-19
“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ's sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too.” -2 Corinthians 1:3-5
“But for me it is good to be near God; I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all your works.” -Psalm 73:28
“Grace, mercy, and peace will be with us, from God the Father and from Jesus Christ the Father's Son, in truth and love.” -2 John 1:3
“I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth. My soul makes its boast in the Lord; let the humble hear and be glad. Oh, magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt His name together! I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to Him are radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed. This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him and saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear Him, and delivers them.” -Psalm 34:1-7
“And He said, ‘My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.’” -Exodus 33:14
“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” -Isaiah 41:10
I leave you with a song I heard this week when I needed it most. I was reminded that no matter how difficult life gets, God is my constant. I need Him, and I love Him.