As a general rule, I've never liked chaos. I prefer plans and organization, and chaos is anything but planned and organized. This is one of the reasons why I don't like having a chronic illness. A disease always disrupts a person's well thought-out plans. It's hard to know what to expect in a day, because one has no idea how he or she will feel. Will today be a day when the disease lies dormant and does little damage, or will it be a day when plans must be cast aside in order deal with pain and fatigue?
For a long time, I would become exasperated by the chaos my disease would create. I constantly lived in frustration, until one day I unexpectedly experienced something wonderful that happened because of my disease. Since that day, I have asked God to bring beauty out my chaotic life, and He continually answers this prayer. I can now honestly say that all the great things happening my life have occurred because I have lupus and Crohns.
As we head into the weekend, many of us have made plans. Yet for many living with a chronic illness, those plans will have to be changed or cancelled because our bodies may not be able to keep up with those plans. But even if this weekend goes according to plans, there will come a day when chaos will reign and our bodies will demand we take a break from life.
How will you respond? Will you let frustration and anger control your attitude, or will you choose to see the beauty in the chaos? I encourage you to ask God to help you see the beauty. There's no telling what unexpected surprise awaits, but anytime we ask God to help us see Him, He will answer every time.
"He (God) heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. He counts the number of the stars; He gives names to all of them. Great is our Lord and abundant in strength; His understanding is infinite. The Lord supports the afflicted..." ~ Psalm 147:3-6
(c) June 7, 2012