A Prayer

By Josie Siler

God has asked me to share a page out of my prayer journal with you. I feel a bit awkward, to be honest, but here it goes…

Job 10:1 (NLT) – “I am disgusted with my life. Let me complain freely. My bitter soul must complain.”

God, today I long to be bitter and to complain with Job at the state I’m in. I feel so sick, have so much pain and misery, I can hardly bear it. You give me a taste of health and then it is gone more quickly than it came and I find myself once again in the darkest, most painful of places. God, help me to not cross the line to blame You or accuse You. Please shine Your light into my dark places. Give me hope of a future with You that will make pain a distant memory – if not forgotten altogether. I choose to believe that You are good and You are for me. I will not let myself sink to bitter complaints against the God I love – the One who is holding me when I have lost the strength to hold on to You. I love You, Lord, and I praise Your great name in the midst of pain and suffering that must have a greater purpose. I am broken Lord. Will You pick up my pieces and form me into a new creation? Amen.

I don’t share this for pity or for sympathy or for praise. I share this because sometimes when we don’t know what to pray, it is helpful to have a written prayer from someone who has walked along our same path. It is my hope and prayer that this will be a help if you are having difficulty expressing yourself to God. ~ Josie