It was only a couple of Christmases ago when I was in a dangerous place and needed the Lord to save me. I was not doing well physically. My weight had dropped to about 90 pounds and I was in pain. The doctors didn’t know what was wrong with me or why I was losing so much weight so quickly. I went through test after test to no avail. Finally, I was put on Prednisone and sent home to see if that would help. It did help me start to gain weight, but it also affected my state of mind.
At the time I was living in an apartment with two dear friends who worked during the day. I had about had it with life and I was afraid that in my altered state of mind I would do something that couldn’t be undone. As the days stretched on I would lie in my bed and think about ending it all. So I went home to stay with my parents and get slobbery kisses from our bulldog.
A short while ago my dad told me that during that time he thought that I went home to die. Little did he know that I went home so I wouldn’t kill myself.
At that point in my life I wasn’t healthy enough emotionally to tell anyone how bad it was. People knew I was sick and in pain, but nobody knew that I had thoughts of suicide. But God knew, so I silently cried out to Him. I needed Him to save me.
We’ve been going through what I call The Madman Series. We’ve been taking a close look at Psalm 34, King David’s song of celebration after God delivers him from a dangerous situation. His life was in grave danger and he pretended to be crazy so that the king who would take his life let him go instead. It’s a Psalm of praise and a Psalm of instruction. David shows us, by his own example, how to live a life that honors God in the midst of suffering.
A couple of weeks ago we looked at a madman’s desire to see good and what role we have to play in seeing good here on earth. As we continue our journey, we’re going to study the words of this madman that we know to be a very sane David, King of Israel. In Psalm 34:15-18 (ESV) we read about a madman’s Savior.
The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous and His ears toward their cry.
The face of the Lord is against those who do evil, to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.
In the midst of your brokenness, when your spirit is crushed, and when your every hope has failed, know this: God is there. He is nearer to you than your next breath and He will save you. He will save you, just as He saved me.
A few years ago I could not imagine a better life. I thought my life was over and I was ready to end it myself. But God saved me and He is healing me. Physically, emotionally, and spiritually, He is healing me.
The Lord saved King David, He saved me, and He can save you. Cry out to Him; that’s all you need to do. Cry out to Him today and He will save you. When you run out of faith, I will have faith for you because I know that my God keeps His promises and will come through for you.
“But— When God our Savior revealed His kindness and love, He saved us, not because of the righteous things we had done, but because of His mercy. He washed away our sins, giving us a new birth and new life through the Holy Spirit. He generously poured out the Spirit upon us through Jesus Christ our Savior. Because of His grace He declared us righteous and gave us confidence that we will inherit eternal life.” ~Titus 3:4-7 (NLT)
© January 6, 2015